Thursday, April 26, 2018

Deceptively Easy

Maybe I make it look too easy. 

You will see me confidently walking at a brisk pace down the sidewalk. 

You will see me staring at my tablet or a computer.  
You will see me watching television or you will see me at a theater watching a film. 

You will see me occasionally looking through a book or a magazine. 

Maybe I make it look too easy, so you forget that I'm visually impaired. 

Maybe you don't realize I'm walking down a sidewalk I'm familiar with.  I know where the bumps and cracks are, though new or unsuspecting obstacles are always waiting to challenge me. 

Maybe you don't realize that whatever I'm doing on my tablet or a computer is on a website or app I had often used before my vision loss, such as this blog.  I know from memory what's what and where I need to click.  Plus, my tablet reads me the words I cannot, including the words I type. 

Maybe you don't realize how I miss subtle facial expressions and movements, or how easily I get lost during action scenes in films and television.  Though I recently experienced subtitles that I could decipher just enough of the words to figure out what was being said.  This was at a theater, and the subtitles were large enough, with a stark enough contrast, but I still didn't catch every single word.  

Maybe you don't realize how little I can read physical print.  I occasionally flip through a book or a magazine in bittersweet memory and to see what I can see.  I can sometimes decipher a title of a book or magazine article, but the regular text is often too small for me to figure out.  Maybe I'll be able to decipher a letter or two, or a small word, but the grey blob in my right eye obscures little details and sometimes larger details, too. 

Maybe you don't realize I am able to do all that I just described because of my Mad Scientist Glasses, except for walking.  Walking while wearing my M.S.G would be dangerous and stupid to attempt.  

I typed this post because I was recently in a situation where people who know of my half-blind eyes seemed to have forgotten my current reality.  It made me realize I needed to put out a friendly reminder.  

Thank you for reading or listening to my half-blind words.

Freak Out, 
JLH 

P.S. For more insight into my half-blind eyes, please click INFO
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John L. Harmon is an indie author, blogger & videographer.

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He currently resides left of center in the state of Nebraska and has been visually impaired since December of 2016.

4 comments:

  1. Great post, John. I can't fully understand what you must be going through, but your evocative words help me appreciate your daily struggle. Thanks for sharing!

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    1. Youre welcome, Barry, and thank you!
      All of it hit me hard this week and I needed to expel it into the universe.

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  2. Beautiful Message, John! I hope people will begin to understand the daily issues your impaired vision, and how it affects you. Thank You for Sharing ... and Reminding all of us ... and helps me to understand more of what you are dealing with!!

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    1. You're welcome, Pete, and thank you!
      Some days are easier than others, but this week felt like a powder keg, so I thought it best to write about it before I exploded.

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