Real Reel Life
by John L. Harmon
(July 29, 2004)
Here I am
In the film of my choice
A classic from long ago
Revisited, Reimagined, Returned
A sequel of sorts
The setting is the same
Changes have permeated the cast
Characters revealing their true
colors
Now relating to one another
In vastly different ways
So I am finally readjusted
Feeling good with my choice
Beginning to see my purpose
Of rejoining this film at this point
Yet, I sometimes ponder
What it is like for others
When I make a special guest
appearance
In the old film
On the old sets
Within the old story
How do my previous castmates
perceive me?
Am I a vapor or a mist?
A spectral memory brought into life?
Perhaps I am the figure
Caught in the corner of the eye
Quickly gone when glanced at
Maybe I am seen as a fugitive
From an old silent film
A flickering black and white image
Not quite in focus
Moving faster than normal
A pantomime of speech and action
Not truly there
Cue fade out
I give a smile and a nod
As my image starts to dim
The flickering subsides
No, not dead
Back to my film I go
Just down the lot
A different soundstage
Of a different size
Now I am fully comfortable
In my celluloid skin
All my props transported here
No solid proof in the old film
Of me, myself and I
Just flashbacks for my former
castmates
Memories that can be forgotten
Distorted
Ignored
I look upon the old film
Spinning the reels in my mind
It all seems so strange
Now that I am completely home
I have one more question to ask
myself
Without physical proof of my
existence there
...did I exist there at all?
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The preceding was a long poem-thing from a different decade. It is essentially about moving from one town to another, but I suppose it could also describe moving on emotionally from one state of mind to another.
Freak Out,
JLH